Monday, October 1, 2012

31 Days...

I may be taking on the craziest idea that I’ve ever encountered, but after reading the nester and hearing about doing the 31 days from other bloggers, I’ve decided to (try!) to blog every day during the month of October.  Crazy, huh?  The point is to pick a topic that you can write about for a month without wearing it out.  So, for 31 days, by the grace of God, my insanity will become a little more sane.  
One aspect of my life that has definitely been different over this year is my walk with the Lord.  I have felt the most distant from Him than any other time in my life.  Yet He has never moved.  I have been the one to allow other things to move in between He & I.  I have allowed complacency to creep into my daily life.

Over the past year, I have struggled with feelings of inadequacy as a mother, wife, teacher, even as a believer.  I have had times when I felt I was literally going insane!  Some days I would feel normal again and things would look positive, but the next day I would struggle to get out of bed and the thoughts of my responsibilities as a mother would overwhelm me.  I turned to books, blogs, vitamins, and even family to help me get out of this fog that has been consuming me. 

I know without a doubt that my time with Him DAILY is so essential in transforming my insane life into one of peace.  In John 14:27, it says, “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you.  I do not give to you as the world gives.  Do not let your hearts be troubled.  Do not be afraid.”  My desire is to get up between 5:45 and 6 am, so that I can have that quality time with the Lord before the rest of the house wakes.  Right now, I’m using the devotional, The Frazzled Female by Cindi Wood.  It’s perfect for where I am right now.  My sweet hubbie found it for me last year, but I’m finally taking the time to use it now.  I know that there will be days that I oversleep or a little one wakes up earlier than usual, and on those days, I pray for His grace to spend time with Him throughout the day and not beat myself up. 

1 comment:

  1. I often feel the same. I look forward to reading your posts this month. Love ya girl!