Some weeks are just harder than others, not visibly to other people, but only known to the ones closest to you. Humility is a hard dose to take, yet so vital to growth.
"You have forsaken your first love" (Revelation 2:4) - lost or abandoned your first love, referring to the first commandment to love the Lord your God with all your heart...
Conviction filled me as I realized how often I do that. I idolize other things before my Lord. I worship the devotional, the author, the blogger, the newest song, more than our God they are writing about.
I fail to stop at the instrument without going further to the conductor.
These instruments are still important. The fault doesn't lie with them, but instead with the musician. When I place someone's words, someone's thoughts at a higher level than the origin behind them, then the love is lost. Let my words not be misunderstood. I am so thankful for the men and women that God is using daily to help me to grow as a child of God, a friend, a mother, and a wife. There have been many seasons in my life in which I firmly believe God has used the words of others to point my eyes back on Him. But I also know there have been times in which my eyes fall short and instead of keeping my eyes on the conductor of this amazing piece of music called "life", I focus on others. I may even idolize them.
"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself." (Matthew 22:37-39)
Not always as easy as it sounds.